I'm scared of next week.
Like REALLY scared...
I've got so many deadlines rushing towards my face...
Wednesday - GEMS Exam
Friday
- CIBM Individual Assignment
- ISP Final Submission
- SDFTV Final Year Project
But, I guess what I'm really frightened is the SDFTV's Final Year Project... everybody is looking up to me to finish what they have put so much effort in...
I have to live up to their expectations.
And I have to live up to my own expectations too.
I MUST make this project the most glorious finale to my acadamic life in polytechnic. By far, this project must be my proudest achievement.
but. will I be able to exceed my expectations?
I dont have much time.... left.
Unlike the editing projects that I usually do during the holidays, this editing has to be done during the MOST busy period in my whole poly life...
Monday - my whole day is cramped up. With classes from 10-4, it gives me hardly any breathing room between to edit anything.
Tuesday - I DEDICATE THIS ENTIRE DAY TO EDITING. NOBODY. I MEAN NOBODY TOUCH ME DURING THIS PERIOD!!! . period .
Wednesday - Morning is stuck with permernant ICMT, and I have to do a last minute revision for a GEMs which I have a strong suspicion I'm going to fail.
Thursday - I will (definately) skip ICM, because I have no choice, and stick myself in the editing suite the whole day.
Friday - Deadline.
That effectively gives me only 2 days to do the editing.
wtf? And its far longer then any project that I have ever done. The rendering will be hell I tell ya.
how how how how??? *SCREAM*
on top of that, I have CIBM which I have not even started because we've yet to discuss some of the important issues yet.
ISP... I think its a dead end already. Ms Kwa didnt seem impressed with my ISP... and apparantly, I missed out a few stuff that ought to be in the report...
arrrgh!!
and worse of all, I CANNOT use a powerbook because I hate powerbooks due to its lagginess.
It HAS to be the G5!!
urgh. But if it comes to naught, I'll have to use it without complaining.
I'll just blister my eyes waiting for it to restart everytime it crashes.
and I can't go out with Dominic this week!!!!! grr...
help.... *croaks weakly*
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Are You Frightened?
Why?
Why does Israel take an offensive stance when the Middle East pokes them to war?
Why do they take the bait?
Are they so blind by their fury?
Frankly, if Israel just go on the defensive, and show the US a few broken walls, the dead bodies of a few refugees, the U.S. will go to war against the middle east in a "peacekeeping effort" to "curb violence".
Now, the U.S. cannot do anything. Because, if they step in now, they will be accused with warmongering, by siding Israel who has gone on full offensive.
BUT.
Now get ready for a likely prediction by yours truly.
1) Lebenon is currently under attack by Israel and Israel refuses to stop.
2) Lebonon advertises her refugees and victims to the world.
3) The United Nations amplifies Lebonon's cry for justice throughout the nations
4) Muslim nations are stirred and start to rally under one banner
5) Every single Muslim extremist groups will be stirred
6) Terrorism starts to occur in Israel
7) Turmoil erupts in Israel
8) The surrounding Shiite Nations try to take this opportunity to invade and capture Israel once and for all.
9) The United States defends Israel, because they WILL.
10) Russia sees this as an opportunity to defy the U.S. supremacy and allies with the Shiite Nations.
11) The European Union, afraid that the war will hit their borders as they are closest to Russia starts allies with the U.S.
12) Communist China, in support of Communist Motherland, Russia offers full millitary might against the U.S. and E.U.
13) The Allies (U.S. and E.U.) realizing their vulnarable state, decides to call in all their resources and Korea, Phillipines, Singapore, Australia and Japan are mobalized into action.
[as you can see, this has escalated to an inevitable world war.)
14) At this moment, North Korea, realizing that all attention has been diverted from them, decide to launch their Nuclear warhead at America due to their constance inteference with their nuclear schemes.
15) The US intercepts that missile but realizes that there are too many of them in store in North Korea and decides to decimate North Korea once and for all.
16) The US uncovers their most potent weapon ???
17) China uncovers their most potent weapon ???
18) The Middle East get ready to fire their Nuclear Weapons at Israel, now that the US has decided to use mega WMDs.
19) The United Nations steps in with a person. That person will be a very charismatic person, a passionate and wonderful person who convinces all the nations of the world to drop their WMDs. He also exercised power, by rights of the UN to destroy all missles using automated defence systems.
20) The person will be hailed a hero and a "master of miracles" because he saved the world from inevitable destruction
21) The United Nations, now under the person gives a solution to permernant world piece - the One World Order. Under this order, every government in the world will submit to a central, impartial authority who will make decisions for the "better" of the world.
For 3 and a half years, the One World System will be under a government system.
After 3 and a half years, the One World System will be overrighted by a "President" who will be the "figurehead" of the human race.
He will set up his headquaters in the high temple in Israel as a landmark because the supposed annihaltion of the world almost occured due to "Israel's Folly"
22) Because of a One World System and increasing technology, there will be no need for cash anymore. There will be one currency throughout the world - the cashless currency.
23) The Cashless Currency system, so that nobody can give an excuse that "oh! I forgot to bring the card with me", will implement a chip to be implanted into every person with an individual identity code.
24) This individual identity code, so that it cannot be tampered, will be linked with a seal from the One World Government.
25) AT THIS MOMENT. Christians all over the world will wake up and realize that the Beast from Revelations has arrived.
26) They will boycott this scheme and will not accept the mark.
"He also forced everyone, small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on his right hand or on his forehead, so that no one could buy or sell unless he had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of his name. This calls for wisdom. If anyone has insight, let him calculate the number of the beast, for it is man's number. His number is 666."
Revelation 13:16-18
27) The One World Government will persecute all Christians by claiming they are "heretics" and "destroyers of order"
28) Then. The start of the end will come.
(re: The book of Revelation)
This is what I predict will outcome IF Israel does not stop.
The armegeddon as prophecised in the Bible will come.
If number 1 and 2 of this list comes true, that meanst the rest, until number 28 will inevitably come to pass.
and if 1 and 2 comes true, that means we dont have much time left. I'd give another 7 years at MOST.
I did not read this from anywhere. It just suddenly occured to me that this WILL happen, if Isreal continues to declare war.
Singapore will not be spared. Christians will not be spared...
P.S. : I'm not saying that muslims are inherently violent. It is just that it is within Islam that the Jews (Israel) and Muslims will always be at loggerhead with each other. It is not exactly pinpointed in the Bible that it is the Shiite nations who will be the trigger of the Armegeddon.
But now that the Muslim nations are so volatile, its quite obvious right?
Why does Israel take an offensive stance when the Middle East pokes them to war?
Why do they take the bait?
Are they so blind by their fury?
Frankly, if Israel just go on the defensive, and show the US a few broken walls, the dead bodies of a few refugees, the U.S. will go to war against the middle east in a "peacekeeping effort" to "curb violence".
Now, the U.S. cannot do anything. Because, if they step in now, they will be accused with warmongering, by siding Israel who has gone on full offensive.
BUT.
Now get ready for a likely prediction by yours truly.
1) Lebenon is currently under attack by Israel and Israel refuses to stop.
2) Lebonon advertises her refugees and victims to the world.
3) The United Nations amplifies Lebonon's cry for justice throughout the nations
4) Muslim nations are stirred and start to rally under one banner
5) Every single Muslim extremist groups will be stirred
6) Terrorism starts to occur in Israel
7) Turmoil erupts in Israel
8) The surrounding Shiite Nations try to take this opportunity to invade and capture Israel once and for all.
9) The United States defends Israel, because they WILL.
10) Russia sees this as an opportunity to defy the U.S. supremacy and allies with the Shiite Nations.
11) The European Union, afraid that the war will hit their borders as they are closest to Russia starts allies with the U.S.
12) Communist China, in support of Communist Motherland, Russia offers full millitary might against the U.S. and E.U.
13) The Allies (U.S. and E.U.) realizing their vulnarable state, decides to call in all their resources and Korea, Phillipines, Singapore, Australia and Japan are mobalized into action.
[as you can see, this has escalated to an inevitable world war.)
14) At this moment, North Korea, realizing that all attention has been diverted from them, decide to launch their Nuclear warhead at America due to their constance inteference with their nuclear schemes.
15) The US intercepts that missile but realizes that there are too many of them in store in North Korea and decides to decimate North Korea once and for all.
16) The US uncovers their most potent weapon ???
17) China uncovers their most potent weapon ???
18) The Middle East get ready to fire their Nuclear Weapons at Israel, now that the US has decided to use mega WMDs.
19) The United Nations steps in with a person. That person will be a very charismatic person, a passionate and wonderful person who convinces all the nations of the world to drop their WMDs. He also exercised power, by rights of the UN to destroy all missles using automated defence systems.
20) The person will be hailed a hero and a "master of miracles" because he saved the world from inevitable destruction
21) The United Nations, now under the person gives a solution to permernant world piece - the One World Order. Under this order, every government in the world will submit to a central, impartial authority who will make decisions for the "better" of the world.
For 3 and a half years, the One World System will be under a government system.
After 3 and a half years, the One World System will be overrighted by a "President" who will be the "figurehead" of the human race.
He will set up his headquaters in the high temple in Israel as a landmark because the supposed annihaltion of the world almost occured due to "Israel's Folly"
22) Because of a One World System and increasing technology, there will be no need for cash anymore. There will be one currency throughout the world - the cashless currency.
23) The Cashless Currency system, so that nobody can give an excuse that "oh! I forgot to bring the card with me", will implement a chip to be implanted into every person with an individual identity code.
24) This individual identity code, so that it cannot be tampered, will be linked with a seal from the One World Government.
25) AT THIS MOMENT. Christians all over the world will wake up and realize that the Beast from Revelations has arrived.
26) They will boycott this scheme and will not accept the mark.
"He also forced everyone, small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on his right hand or on his forehead, so that no one could buy or sell unless he had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of his name. This calls for wisdom. If anyone has insight, let him calculate the number of the beast, for it is man's number. His number is 666."
Revelation 13:16-18
27) The One World Government will persecute all Christians by claiming they are "heretics" and "destroyers of order"
28) Then. The start of the end will come.
(re: The book of Revelation)
This is what I predict will outcome IF Israel does not stop.
The armegeddon as prophecised in the Bible will come.
If number 1 and 2 of this list comes true, that meanst the rest, until number 28 will inevitably come to pass.
and if 1 and 2 comes true, that means we dont have much time left. I'd give another 7 years at MOST.
I did not read this from anywhere. It just suddenly occured to me that this WILL happen, if Isreal continues to declare war.
Singapore will not be spared. Christians will not be spared...
P.S. : I'm not saying that muslims are inherently violent. It is just that it is within Islam that the Jews (Israel) and Muslims will always be at loggerhead with each other. It is not exactly pinpointed in the Bible that it is the Shiite nations who will be the trigger of the Armegeddon.
But now that the Muslim nations are so volatile, its quite obvious right?
Friday, July 28, 2006
If you think the I had alot in the previous entry, THIS is my compiled research WITH secondary research and my appendixes. altogether? 30,000+++ words. (of course, less then half is the written report. Most of it is the secondary research). BUT STILL. Andrew. I think you just overworked yourself. *faint*
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Monday, July 24, 2006
better =)
After talking to Dominic, Dylan and Jeremy, things started to look brighter...
I guess my resilliance factor to these kinda disappointments are starting to get better.
Thanks Marcus and Jawei too.. =)
THIS also cheered me up quite a bit.
haha.
i realized something too.
since we're not the top teams, we dont have to slog more work.
we've done finished our website. and thats about it.
ICM is finished.
away with stupid motorola.
I guess my resilliance factor to these kinda disappointments are starting to get better.
Thanks Marcus and Jawei too.. =)
THIS also cheered me up quite a bit.
Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One faculty to design the new bulb, one faculty to test it out, one faculty to market it and one guy to write a stupid E-mail about lightbulbs.
Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.
Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.
Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They can study without light.
Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.
Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change lightbulb??
A: None. They'd use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.
Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate(how do you think they're able to change it for ACJC?)
Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They like being in the dark;)
Q: How many JJC students does it take to changea lightbulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they make the male teacher cry.
Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They wouldn't bother.
Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.
Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.
Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: Huh, wat litebarbu...
Q: How many TJC students does it take to change the lightbulb?
A: None. They think they are very bright already.
Q: How many PJC students does it take to change the lightbulb?
A: F*** the lightbulb lah, the principal will do something about rightbarbs. Let's do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.
haha.
i realized something too.
since we're not the top teams, we dont have to slog more work.
we've done finished our website. and thats about it.
ICM is finished.
away with stupid motorola.
game over.
First. (its been 31 minutes 57 seconds since that announcement)
FUCK.
again. for the umpteenth time, my effort only seem to culminate to failure.
FAILURE.
considering my florid form of written schematics, one should already know that it has to do with the Motorola Campaign.
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE CAMPAIGN.
WE COVERED EVERY SINGLE DETAIL, EVERY SINGLE MOLECULE OF MISTAKE THAT COULD HAPPEN AND YET WE DIDNT GET IN.
what should be so difficult in getting in 25% of the standard?
6 groups x 6 people = 36
36/100 = 1/3
AND WE STILL COULDNT GET IN.
you don't like the campaign, tell me straight.
don't start with all the shit about campaign logos not working, undue technology, and taglines not strong enough.
WE WORKED DAMM HARD.
and quit with all those dumb excuses that working hard and the experience is all that matters.
WE worked and slogged through nights to get something WE believe is FANTASTIC, our friends think is FANTASTIC to you big ass bigots.
FINE. reject us. It'll only show how puny your brains are.
unsophisticated and plastic.
is it so hard to find a place in this world?
on one hand, you need to know people and have connections.
on the other, you need to excel acadamically.
what happens when your caught in the middle?
is it my destiny NEVER to succeed in life?
everytime i persue one dream, everything goes against it coming true.
i... was bending so much on this ICM project to pull up my GPA...
now it seems like i'll never make it past 3...
its all I have left... really...
and the straw that broke the camel's back had to come now.
I really have no motivation left to work.
Everything i do only results in unrecognition.
I dont care about the amount of workload i have to do. really.
I won't even mind if i have a million projects...
but I want SOMETHING out of my efforts! SOMETHING which people will recognize...
SOMETHING which I can be proud of!!!
nothing.
nothing whatsoever.
so what now Andrew?
the world seems to collapse on you over and over again.
soon you will not be able to stand up again..
music, you're a failure. After 10 years in a band, nobody recognizes your skill, nobody cares about how you play, nobody bothers to encourage you.
You play in the church. Serve God. For WHAT?
He must be condamming you because you defied him by being gay.
The church could not be bothered. They have tons of guitarists, either one can take over the synth.
Your friends? ASH? What ASH. The ASH hardly even exists anymore. Encumbered by work and relationship, they don't even know each other anymore. They exist only as a group of three musicians that serve fruitlessly in a band.
In school, friends seem to be there around you all the time. Their results soar above yours and are perpetually out of reach. In everyway, everyone is better then you. Why do you even try?
You find solace in technology know-how. But you know that you don't have a future there. WHo are you to compare yourself to the ICT technowizards? What did you even come to DMC for? What future is there even?
You dont specialize in anything, you pretend you know everything. But deep down you're a failure. an absolute failure.
You're forgetful,
You're unfillial,
You're stupid,
You're ugly,
You're sinful,
You're unloved.
Go kill yourself.
Really. The world doesnt need you.
In the family, everybody is going to university, collages and graduating with honours and degrees. WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU?
are you even illegitmate? I think you are, because I have a gut feeling your IQ is less then half of your siblings or cousins.
Do you think God even likes you?
You play for him every week, you teach music, you talk about the gospel, but you're a hypocrite.
You go against everything you say.
You're gay. And didnt the bible write somewhere that homos somehow end up in hell?
Is there even a God?
IF there is, apparantly he couldnt be bothered with your insignificant existance. Much like your insignficant existance in the world.
no one likes you. face it.
no one knows you. face it.
Andrew hates you.
You hate yourself.
whatever for Andrew?
*cries*
FUCK.
again. for the umpteenth time, my effort only seem to culminate to failure.
FAILURE.
considering my florid form of written schematics, one should already know that it has to do with the Motorola Campaign.
I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE CAMPAIGN.
WE COVERED EVERY SINGLE DETAIL, EVERY SINGLE MOLECULE OF MISTAKE THAT COULD HAPPEN AND YET WE DIDNT GET IN.
what should be so difficult in getting in 25% of the standard?
6 groups x 6 people = 36
36/100 = 1/3
AND WE STILL COULDNT GET IN.
you don't like the campaign, tell me straight.
don't start with all the shit about campaign logos not working, undue technology, and taglines not strong enough.
WE WORKED DAMM HARD.
and quit with all those dumb excuses that working hard and the experience is all that matters.
WE worked and slogged through nights to get something WE believe is FANTASTIC, our friends think is FANTASTIC to you big ass bigots.
FINE. reject us. It'll only show how puny your brains are.
unsophisticated and plastic.
is it so hard to find a place in this world?
on one hand, you need to know people and have connections.
on the other, you need to excel acadamically.
what happens when your caught in the middle?
is it my destiny NEVER to succeed in life?
everytime i persue one dream, everything goes against it coming true.
i... was bending so much on this ICM project to pull up my GPA...
now it seems like i'll never make it past 3...
its all I have left... really...
and the straw that broke the camel's back had to come now.
I really have no motivation left to work.
Everything i do only results in unrecognition.
I dont care about the amount of workload i have to do. really.
I won't even mind if i have a million projects...
but I want SOMETHING out of my efforts! SOMETHING which people will recognize...
SOMETHING which I can be proud of!!!
nothing.
nothing whatsoever.
so what now Andrew?
the world seems to collapse on you over and over again.
soon you will not be able to stand up again..
music, you're a failure. After 10 years in a band, nobody recognizes your skill, nobody cares about how you play, nobody bothers to encourage you.
You play in the church. Serve God. For WHAT?
He must be condamming you because you defied him by being gay.
The church could not be bothered. They have tons of guitarists, either one can take over the synth.
Your friends? ASH? What ASH. The ASH hardly even exists anymore. Encumbered by work and relationship, they don't even know each other anymore. They exist only as a group of three musicians that serve fruitlessly in a band.
In school, friends seem to be there around you all the time. Their results soar above yours and are perpetually out of reach. In everyway, everyone is better then you. Why do you even try?
You find solace in technology know-how. But you know that you don't have a future there. WHo are you to compare yourself to the ICT technowizards? What did you even come to DMC for? What future is there even?
You dont specialize in anything, you pretend you know everything. But deep down you're a failure. an absolute failure.
You're forgetful,
You're unfillial,
You're stupid,
You're ugly,
You're sinful,
You're unloved.
Go kill yourself.
Really. The world doesnt need you.
In the family, everybody is going to university, collages and graduating with honours and degrees. WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU?
are you even illegitmate? I think you are, because I have a gut feeling your IQ is less then half of your siblings or cousins.
Do you think God even likes you?
You play for him every week, you teach music, you talk about the gospel, but you're a hypocrite.
You go against everything you say.
You're gay. And didnt the bible write somewhere that homos somehow end up in hell?
Is there even a God?
IF there is, apparantly he couldnt be bothered with your insignificant existance. Much like your insignficant existance in the world.
no one likes you. face it.
no one knows you. face it.
Andrew hates you.
You hate yourself.
whatever for Andrew?
*cries*
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